Lying on the bed,
Eyes outside the window
And Mind miles away.
Seeing the rain fall,
The distant pitter and patter.
Lying on the bed,
Hand in hair.
Thoughts there and everywhere.
The season is rubbing off on me.
The monsoon is outside
And on my mind
As clock ticks and tocks,
The grey season makes me blue.
And I lie on my bed.
Today I picked up The fault in our Stars and began reading it from a random page. As I was reading, I imagined myself in the characters’ position, as you do. I imagined what it would be like to have a disease which kills you not only physically but also mentally. What it would be like to be a Grenade as Hazel puts it in the book.
It would be heartbreaking and scary, no doubt about it and I am not one of those weirdos who wish to be Hazel Grace because it’s oh so romantic. But I still imagine what I would do if I come to know today that my days are numbered.
And thus began my mental checklist of what I would do and what I should do if I have few months of life left. Midway through this discussion I asked myself, “Why don’t I do these things now? Why do I have to wait for a deadline before I start doing things I want to?”
Continue reading “The world is not a wish-granting factory”
We don’t think about “The Best day of my Life” very frequently, we probably think more about the “The worst day of my Life” for sure. So when I was asked to write on “The Best day of my Life” (In 500 words) I went “Huh, when was the best day of my life?” I couldn’t think of anything for quite some time and that feeling reminded me of school days when we were asked to write an essay on “My Pet”. I had no pet. I didn’t mean I have no best day, I just couldn’t think of anything!
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I am troubled and you must be too
The world is troubled and all its people too.
I look around and its chaos everywhere.
I close my eyes and there is chaos everywhere.
She yells, some shout.
They scream, they cry.
They exhibit their chaos,
Decorate it with jewels of pity.
Continue reading “Silence: The language of Chaos”
My last semester at the college is over and I am doing what many may call “wasting time“.
I wake up late every morning, skip breakfast and have my lunch. Snacks in the evening and then skip dinner. Then I go to sleep in the early hours of the next day.
The time in between is occupied by YouTube, Kdrama, Anime, Manga or mindless internet surfing.
I wake up in pyjamas and change into pyjamas. I haven’t stepped out of the house in over a week. If you call me now, there is a strong 92% chance of me putting my cell phone on silent and waiting till you stop calling me. If you text me right now, I may read your text later. After a week? Given the current state, probably a month or maybe just mark it as ‘read‘. I currently have 42 unread messages on WhatsApp, I haven’t checked messenger or instant messaging yet so dunno about that. I just deleted 144 emails without reading. Which I probably shouldn’t have done.
If you are reading this, it means that I have finally uploaded a post here after a year-long hiatus. But in my defence, it was my last year at college and I needed to study. But again, I didn’t do that either.
Continue reading “Just Keep Going On”
Hello and welcome to Mindscape Diary!
This is a place where I share my view, my thoughts and parts of my mindscape.
There are few things going on in my mind from past few days and its related to serious topics of stress, depression and mysteries of future.
While I was thinking on it and typing another post which happens to be on stress ( which you can view here
) I couldn’t help but laugh at the Indian mentally when it comes to education.
Every parent wants his or her child to study in best school.
But many parents want their kids to study in best school which is better than that neighborhood kid, Rahul.
Continue reading “What should I be? Doctor or engineer?”